Embracing the reality... as it is today.

It has been an interesting process to go through this second pregnancy. When I found out we were expecting in early October, I had a pretty big ambition to stay in shape and be the super preggy mom who can do everything and more. Unfortunately, the reality hasn't been that easy. The first trimester hit me really hard with (all day) morning sickness then just when I started to feel better after a long holiday season, we battled through cold/flu roller coaster up and down. Finally everything seems it's in a good place today..., but my body feels like it's playing a major catch up from months of down time and my physical ability simply can't keep up with all the things I wished I could.

I've been wanting to bounce out of the feeling of defeat... the feeling of "unable" to do certain things physically... but today I am in the process of accepting how it feels as it is the true reality.

It's true... that my mind is occupied with Roo and her growth that sometimes I don't think of the little one in my belly till I go to bed...

It's true that my body is so much achier than my first pregnancy...

It's true that I simply don't have enough time to go to prenatal yoga classes I wished I could. 

It's true that it makes me anxious when I try to imagine what our new schedule would be like when we have two kids in our hands.

But it's also true... that Frido has been very grounded and supportive of this process even when I am little shaky...

and it's also true that my heart melts when Roo talks to her sister in my belly.

Next three-four months as I have true privilege to nurture this amazing soul in my body, I want to be able to embrace and ride the dynamic of my mind/body, my family and the business whether it's rocky or smooth. It's a promise I am making today... and I know it will be difficult to stay true to this all the time (we are all human..., right?) but I will try my best.